I’ve spent the past several weeks trying to figure out where I’m going with my writing. I’ve wiped the slate clean a few times over the past couple of years in regards to my online posting. I finally have come to the conclusion that I need to simply be more forthcoming and raw with my output when it comes to my public facing documentation.
While I’ve considered doing an open journal for some time now, I haven’t been able to give myself much leeway on the format and topics. I kept telling myself that my writing needed to be about something, to stand for something. But I have come to realize that the greatest works of human expression come from a very vulnerable place. This is the part of me that I struggle with baring, and now, I feel that it’s necessary for me to simply say what I’m going to say. I can’t be concerned if no one reads it or if it offends someone. I’m just going to say what I need to say.
Perhaps what I will produce on a fairly regular basis going forward will be disjointed. But I have practiced enough with my organizational skills on the backend, with ruthlessly tearing apart my archives for potential content, to know what I feel is worthy of putting in print for others to read. I know when I am rambling now and have come to see the signs when to cut things short.
As such, I will try to post something daily, sometimes fresh, but other times rescued from some document that would otherwise be scrapped. I’m not so concerned with chronology. I just want the words to speak for themselves. But, I do need to hold myself accountable for being productive, not for the sake of keeping busy, but keeping myself honest and true to self for the service of my readers.
~ Amelia Desertsong, February 18th 2024
