The Ghost of the Beloved Pet Not Yet Departed

my kitty cat - engleburt "pinky" humblepink

There is no possibility I will ever again have a pet, as having a beloved pet only leads me to heartbreak. It’s even worse when one of those pets has to be given up in order to serve a greater purpose. When I had to surrender my sweet Engleburt Humblepink, the sweetest kitty in the Universe, in order to keep my housing, it absolutely broke me inside. It was the beginning of a downward spiral for me emotionally and spiritually.

Those who truly love their pets as their children will understand this. Putting my cat up for adoption was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I had to pretend to hate my beloved Pinky in order to gather up the strength to even surrender him. But, before I left him on the shelter doorstep, I gave him a sweet goodbye. He mewed sadly the whole time he saw me walk away, and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. There have been moments that to most sane people would probably have been harder. But, for me, that’s still what weighs most heavily on my heart.

I considered getting another pet, specifically another cat, mostly likely a kitten. But, when my beloved puppy passed from kidney failure, I resolved to never have another pet in my life. Even though the puppy wasn’t mine originally, I became responsible for him for almost six years.He and I adopted each other. Now, I can’t even stand to be with anyone who even thinks about having a pet in the house. I’m that now opposed to having a pet constantly in my midst.

I’m more than happy to watch someone’s pet, or to foster for a short time. But, I could just never take on that sort of responsibility again, as the attachments are just too much for me to bear. The spirit of my beloved puppy is still around with us, andI know one day that Pinky’s spirit will return to me. Sometimes, I can still hear his pitiful cries for me from wherever he is. It’s just too heartbreaking to be dreaming of the ghost of the beloved pet not yet departed.

Many know what it’s like to lose a beloved pet, and I’ve seen the financial and emotional strains that pets put on families. Eventually, you have to prioritize human beings. For some of us, our pets are our family, and I don’t have any issues with others feeling that way. But, going forward, I have my LGBTQts and others who deserve my full love and attention. Having any sort of pet would take away from what I have to give. I have a limited amount of  time left on this earth, so it’s in my own best interests to focus all I have on my fellow struggling souls.

I know how much pets mean to so many of us. However, I feel that human beings deserve all of my attention. Perhaps, this isn’t a popular opinion, but for me, it’s something I have to do if nothing more than  to remain sane and positive in these extremely trying times.

As someone who has three human kids who are my own flesh and blood, I have no choice but to prioritize those gorgeous souls whom God blessed me with, even in the face of such trying and overwhelming life circumstances. I have no regrets about having them – as I once did – and see them as the greatest blessings that I could’ve ever been given.

Do you see your pets as your children, as I most certainly once did? There’s nothing wrong with that. For some of us, our pets are the only children we may ever get. To each their own, of course. I love all animals and wish you and your furry friends all the best. For me, my furry friends exist within my stories and hopefully one day in the minds of all of you who dare to read them!

God bless you all, furry and furless alike!

~ Amelia <3

Writing words, spreading love, Amelia Desertsong primarily writes creative nonfiction articles, as well as dabbling in baseball, Pokemon, Magic the Gathering, and whatever else tickles her fancy.
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