In My Own Skin

I don’t have a hot date tonight, but I wanted to feel pretty. #redlipstick seemed to do the trick, among other things. I know I’ve actually been posting pics of myself finally that are without makeup. That’s been a huge step for me, though.

There are plenty of things I still see in myself that I don’t like. But, I feel like I’m overthinking it.  You probably just see a pretty girl with red lipstick. Yet, underneath it all, there are years of self-hatred to get over.

I’m just glad to finally be setting myself free and taking to the air. Hope you’re all having a day! I really hope you have a beautiful woman or man by your side to spend your evenings and weekends with. I don’t have one currently, and while I’m not looking, I wouldn’t mind if one dropped into my lap!


Amelia <3

Writing words, spreading love, Amelia Desertsong primarily writes creative nonfiction articles, as well as dabbling in baseball, Pokemon, Magic the Gathering, and whatever else tickles her fancy.

10 thoughts on “In My Own Skin

  1. To say that I was different as a kid would have been a massive understatement. I was born with an exceptionally high intelligence, and was given the option of testing out of high school after completing fourth grade. I never fit in, and I absolutely hated school and the modern educational system in general. I never felt as if I truly mattered until just recently, and I’m just short of 41 years old. ☹️

    1. Whoa! I wish I were THAT smart! I did have the opportunity to skip two grades. My parents didn’t let me and I wish that they had. It would’ve allowed me to skip some of the more brutal parts of my childhood… although, it’s those trying times that shape us into who we become πŸ™‚ Even now at 33, I’m still figuring out how I fit into this world. I never have fit in, and perhaps not fitting in is more of a blessing than a curse as I’ve come to find πŸ™‚

      1. Being smarter than most people is great, though it has some disadvantages in life. For example, it is difficult to comprehend how some people make mistakes that I would see as obvious, especially if they made the same mistake repeatedly. Add to the fact that I’m also INFJ, and if they are a close friend or family member, I take their mistakes personally.

        Then there is the problem that if you are smarter, you can advance more quickly at work. The modern educational system was a disaster for me, and most of the time I simply wasn’t challenged nearly enough. I never completed college, though it didn’t matter because I was able to land jobs that required a degree regardless of not finishing college. The problem came when I was getting promoted above people who were old enough to be my parents and there was a lot of resentment.

        As far as testing out of high school early, my parents were totally against it. My perspective might be different if I had a gifted child of my own, but I never planned to have kids. The compromise I made with my parents was to go get evaluated at age 12 at a local college. Mind you, by this age I was already studying scientific things like string theory at the library. I was able to go to college part time and complete high school concurrently.

        1. Wow, sounds like you’ve accomplished so much! College was an awful experience for me. Even after four years, I didnt even finish. I’ll be writing about it soon enough.

  2. I never really knew what I wanted to do with my life, and that has truly made things interesting and allowed me to pursue the things that I wanted to as they became available. Truthfully, I wanted to be a writer since I was 8. My father told me that I had better find a job to do untill I was able to write full time, which is why I spent almost 18 years in the fire department, leaving shortly after making the rank of Lieutenant. ?

          1. Small sizes exist, even for petite folks. The problem is that the suit itself can weigh up to 30 pounds; adding the airpack can add an additional 25 to 30 pounds, then any equipment carried obviously adds even more weight.

            I used to be in excellent shape. Used to be. ?

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